Goodbye Berlin

Written by John von Ahlen

Chorus 1
Goodbye Berlin
The world is turning
Away from all that we love
You know it like I do, like I do

Verse 1
I spent 3 days walking in the rain
You take me into hell and then back again

Pre Chorus 1
Don’t keep me here, I can’t bear to stay!
Oh I’ll come back again, on another day

Repeat Chorus

Chorus 2
So Goodbye Berlin
My heart is burning
To run from all that I love
You know that I can’t stay or remain

Verse 2
A darker world, deeper underground
That only you can find, only in your mind

Repeat Pre Chorus 1

Repeat Chorus 1
Repeat Chorus 2

Pre Chorus 2
Just for now we should say goodbye
To keep the love alive, let the Eagle fly

Repeat Chorus 1
Repeat Chorus 2

Repeat Chorus 1 (BVs only)
Repeat Chorus 2

Additional Information:
Chorus lyrics written on Sunday the 10th of February in Hamburg.
Verse lyrics written on Friday the 15th of February in Berlin at the Lindemann Hotel.
Music written on Saturday the 16th of February from 14:12 to 15:35 hours at Mike and Nic's Studio in Sandbach.
Vocals recorded in YSF Studio, Sandbach with Johanna on Sunday the 17th of February, 2019.

I know it's 5 in the morning there so I have to type this message while I remember..
Billie and I went out for dinner last night at a lovely French Restaurant...and I had the weirdest dreams this morning..

I can't remember everything but the main three sections I remember where :

1) it was in the future like some sort of Logan's Run scenario, and there was robots and security everywhere. It was like some massive shopping centre or similar. Katharine had been kidnapped for some reason, and Angus and I were looking for her. I seem to remember this massive escalator that we went up, and there were flying robots that started to go berserk because they knew Angus and I had escaped (and presumably Katharine as well) and these robots were starting to hurt people. They looked like the Fighter Robots from Dune, except spherical and flying. These razors and blades had come out and were starting injure and kill people. I remember very graphic scenes of people running and screaming in terror having their necks cut open and faces badly injured. It was difficult to see because it was all so real. So Angus and I managed to run through the hordes of screaming people and we then were going to go down these massively long escalators, but the people on there were also being slaughtered even worse because they had nowhere to go except up or down, and the increasing amount of bodies on the steps were stopping them from going anywhere soon. So we saw some steps directly next to the elevators and ran down those because for some weird reason (dream logic) the steps gave us access to the level down below. I got to the ground level first and through some glass doors next to the base of the escalators and Angus was about one second behind me. I saw a poster on the wall that said.....something.....but I knew it was a secret code. A secret code from Katharine! So there was a table just next to this poster in the corner of the glass entrance door. The table had a tablecloth that covered it from top to bottom. The table itself was impossibly small, perhaps 60cm square in width and 1.5 metre in height but i lifted the tablecloth and found Katharine. We were all so happy! We ran off together and then I can't remember what happened next, except.

2) I can't remember specifically what happened after that except we somehow ended up underground (dream logic and memory gaps when you wake up). Except it was like being underneath that same shopping centre. The space itself was cavernous. Maybe several hundred meters in area, but the height to ceiling was maybe 4 or 5 metres. Big enough that you could see reasonably far away. The place was deserted, except for maybe one or two people. There was no panic or chaos as there was above. But there was a different type of feeling. The ground itself was all earthen, very lumpy with smooth peaks and troughs. It was brown/orange in colour. Almost like the inside of some animal cage you'd find at a zoo. The ground itself was a little sloped and tapered towards to roof at one end with maybe just a small gap separating ceiling from floor. It kind of felt like being underneath a house. Probably the house of Jeffrey Dahmer but not really. There were no dead bodies here. No human ones at any rate. All of a sudden we saw a little creature run very fast across the ground. Not sure what it was, maybe a rat or something? Then we saw it was cute sort of hamster/guinea pig type thing. Some random people told us that there weren't many of them left. We soon found out why because another slightly larger creature was screaming and chasing the smaller one. All I remember about the larger one was that it was all teeth and just wanted to eat this little smaller one. IRL I had seen 2 dogs fighting with teeth bared at the Ostbahnhof Flea Markt and it reminded me very much of that imagery. The smaller creature managed to escape its hunter by slipping into the cracks where the floor joined the roof. We were all still walking through this underground cavern because we were obviously going to somewhere better. We saw another smaller creature being chased again and we threw things at the hunter as it went past, to slow it down. Again the smaller one managed to escape and we all were very much relieved.

3) Male prostitute scene
After the above happenings, everything melted away and I was still in the same futuristic scene, except now it was like a dark sex club or something. It was all dark and black, not many people or furniture that I seem to remember. Except now I was a male prostitute and my pimp was telling about my new John. I don't know exactly what I did as a male prostitute but this new job involved being fucked in the ass. What I distinctly remember is my pimp making all these hand gestures and showing me how small an asshole can be, and then opening his fist to show how much an asshole can expand. Needless to say I was not very impressed. But then he told me how much money I was going to get paid, and I thought,why not? How much could it hurt anyway? IRL I had been watching Sense8 and think one of those scenes was finding its way into my dream. Angus and Katharine were still there but just sitting on chairs, lazing around. Everything was all very relaxed and there was no chaos as there was in the above futuristic robot killer world.

I did eat Marzipan before I went to sleep. So the moral of the story is...don't Curry Wurst for lunch, French Food for dinner and then Marzipan before you go to bed.

See you all soon!

Unused Lyrics
The wheels are turning,
Better than I do, than I do
I run from all that I love
The fire is
The rain is falling
My heart
Nobody like I do, like I do

that only you have found

There's a space that no one should see
There's a darker place I don't need to be
(it's in your mind)
(The strong survive, only in your mind)

(back again)
This is not the place, that I want to be.